Crunch time

Eh.. the pressure is building up again, and this isn't like basketball where I can handle it.. HAHA! Tangina hanggang dito nagyayabang pa rin... tsk tsk

What to do in situations like these? I have no idea... but I'll figure it out soon... I hope

The assumptions are driving me crazy... I mean, come on, could it be? Is it even possible? Haha!

Puzzling? I don't think so... everything's pretty obvious from here...

Bah! I'm supposed to have basketball today... and I don't even feel like playing... that's crap

I was able to apply this thing about the absolute truth and that truth is relative part of Philo... there is that absolute truth that is true about the events now, and there is that relative truth which is what I believe, and truly believe to be true... but it may not be the absolute truth [in this case, I can only hope that what I believe is the truth], did that make sense? Does that apply? HAHA! Philo orals! I'm not ready!

Point is, I don't care much about the absolute truth... I just have to know the the relative truth, on your side... mehn oh mehn!

Woohoo! One piece! Booyah!

A Dream's end

That's because I couldn't sleep... well that is hahaha!

After I got home last night, I smoked a few and slept... and then I woke up at around 5 or 6 am... and then I couldn't go back to sleep anymore...

This bites...

I have a question... can you be really sorry from something you did, if you don't know what it was? I was just wondering, even if I'm truly sincere that I didn't mean whatever it was that I did.. ang labo noh? Haha! Oh well...

Another thing, I've always considered myself as the last guy... at least in academics. Let's just say in groups? I don't expect to be chosen or any crap like that... I hate it yeah but that doesn't change the fact that I accept it. That's why Basketball is sanctuary... I know for a FACT that I will never be chosen last...

A last resort...

I'm not in the mood to go to accounting anymore... haha... crap.

AVATAR IS THE BEST! Hahaha!

Emotions

Wow... One Piece really brings out me feelings... hahaha! You know that feeling? I can't explain it but yeah... that feeling where a surge of emotions rushes and then there's that weird feeling in you chest, then your throat starts to feel something different too. Then your eyes starts to blurr... but no, the tears don't drop... HAHAHA! I get carried away sometimes...

Oh, 82 in Theo.. not bad right? Haha, and again, Locker tells me "Oh, how very unexpected" WAHAHA! Don't I look like I'm smart? HAHAHA! But eh follows up with something like "Just kidding, if you put your mind to it, blah blah blah" Haha!

Let's just hope I'm not overcut..

OH AND THE GAME IS CANCELLED... SEE YOU NEXT SEM

I've gotta be honest, I've been waiting for you all my life

Dashboard? Wahaha! Daym... biglang nakita ko ung song sa PC eh... haha!

Oh, and did I mention that there were only 7 people higher than me in that 2nd accounting LT? Oh how lovely! Haha!

Ok, so part of my list [the list of stuff I have to change about myself] is the mentality where I only CHOOSE to put effort on those stuff that I can actually get high in [like accounting and theo where I have no grade lower than a B] and just don't mind those that I would less likely get a high grade [like LS and ECO where getting a D is no problem]... dang it! Gotta fix that... If I set my thinking straight... I can put some effort on ALL those stuff and get high on all of it...

I just need some training on how to study... or the training to actually be able to stand studying... coz if I'm not interested... I won't even bother... CRAP!

Oh, and my LS teacher did something funny again... the LT was out of 40... I got 23/30 in the multiple choice part.. essay? Let's just say I got 2 out of the 3 essays wrong and I got 2 out of the 3 points in the SECOND essay... my final score? 29/40... I PASSED! Wahaha, and I don't even know how that happened... but it's in my favor so I won't bother... haha!

ANYONE and EVERYONE! You are invited to watch CHEESECAKES game on Friday, Sept 28 730 PM [I think..] I promise it won't be boring! [Especially when we're losing]

Will I ever be worthy?

Or better yet, will I ever realize that I am worthy?

I AM NOT AND WILL NOT BE AN INSIGNIFICANT LITTLE SHIT!

*bow*

Accounting is Lovely

Just when I thought the week was full of bad luck... I finally see my accounting score! And you know? STUDYING DOES PAY OFF... I got an 86!!! Woohoo! Not bad right? I think the highest got a 94.something but whatever... I got a good grade!! OH YEAH!

And I attended class today... I was fuckin nervous, thinking its my time to get called... but I didn't! Woohoo! I thought I was a goner... I still don't know anything about the LT tom so wish me luck... But he did keep making eye contact with me... I think he was thinking "Who the hell is this guy and why is he on my class?" HAHAHA!

I still can't believe the 86... LET'S ALL HOPE IT'S NOT SOME MISTAKE WITH UPLOADING THE GRADES IN THE SITE! Haha!

History still sucks by the way...

I calculated... I have around 18-21 hours to study if I don't sleep... and 10-12 if I do... so what should it be?

I seem jolly don't I?

Double edged

Ok... so this week, we lost our basketball game... 57 -48 I think... I'm not even sure how many points I made coz it didn't matter... we lost... the upside? the 3rd quarter score was 51-26... we made a great run... just didn't have enough time...

Another thing? I'm officially overcut in Histo... and I've given up trying to fix it... I have no valid excuse, period. Although maybe I'm gonna try one last time... or not.. whatever... if I feel like it.

Let's all hope accounting doesn't fall in those unlucky parts of the week... after all, the week wasn't all that bad... a lot of simple things that make it quite good.. haha!

Next game is next week friday... we all want you guys to watch and cheer me... I mean us.. wahahaha!

I like this... dreaming isn't so bad after all

What's wrong with Sanji? Haha!

One Piece, One Piece, One Piece, One Piece..... Crap.. Haha!

Why can't everything else be as simple? Like one piece? Or basketball? HAHA!

History, lets all hope I get a B

Haven't attended an accounting class since early July... let's all hope he doesn't keep track...

Well, I'm happy... still a sissy though...

But a man can dream right?

So let's all just watch the CHEESECAKES play basketball...

Out for glory

Today... I have proven myself worthy of my title... TEAM CAPTAIN! Woohoo! Haha!

Game 1... we won! I think the score was 48 -37 or something like that. Who deserves the game ball? TANGINA ME! HAHAHAHA! Mayabang? No... I am proud of my game eh... tangina, I didn't expect my game to be that good [well, it wasn't that good but I know for a fact na my teammates would agree that I did a good job]

And the leadership wasn't bad as well... I got the hang of shouting by the second quarter... haha!

TANGINA! I am proud... although I don't know if the team wasn't good... but they were eh... just not spectacular.

Stats? I forgot... well except for the points... 19 isn't so bad right? HAHA! I'm really not boasting or anything but I'm just really proud of how I played that game... Let's hope it goes on for the rest of the games...

Captain... I think I proved that I am worthy enough... HAHA!

Now if only I could prove this other thing that I want to be.... maybe some other time! HAHA!

Overcut?

Ok... so I missed my History class today... after planning last night not to... crap... that gives me 6 cuts and 3 lates... and I'm not sure yet if that's overcut or not... CRAP CRAP CRAP

Stress naman 'to eh... well, at least I got the game I was looking for. OH YEAH! [Even if I missed the ADMU VS DLSU game.... crap haha!

1st IAC game today... nervous? A little... but somehow my body hurts like hell today... haha... stress pare...

Watch

Help Wanted

Anyone got BRIGANDINE: LEGEND OF FORSENA? It's an old PS1 game... if you have it, can I borrow? Haha! please please please...

Anyway, One Piece is attaching to me well. I'm in the 8th chapter... still reading even if I should be going home now since Trini isn't replying.... crap... commute I guess.

Nothing much to say... except I missed History class because I was planning not to sleep last night and then by 700AM, I fell asleep and that makes 5 cuts and 3 lates... 1 late and I max it out... CRAP!

Ah basta... just find me BRIGANDINE PLEASE!!! Haha

Out

Glory Days

Did I ever have those?

Of course I did. The Golden Age... haha! Not the time to discuss them though... lazy... but those were the days when I didn't have to study and still be in the honors list... great days really

Now, I have to study to get a passing grade [well at least for classes like Eco and Histo] and still study to get high grades... which is worse... haha! I know, I've been ranting about this thing for ages now but I really just can't get over it... I still think I'm an unspoiled genius who has yet to discover his true potential... haha!

Anyway, I've found a new excuse for my actions. I call it my unending quest for glory. I mean, it sounds nice right? Some medieval shit and honor and glory and chivalry and stuff... and most important part? It's UNENDING. HAHA!

Anyway, I hate ADSA for texting me a very unprofessional info that said something like "The hearing is rescheduled to Friday, Sept. 5. What's wrong with it? FRIDAY ISN'T MOTHERFUCKIN SEPT 5!!! I had to reschedule our IAC game... I mean, SAYANG NAMAN! Haha! Oh well.. stupid fucks.... so now I'm not sure whether the hearing is on friday, or wednesday... crap

Show me a way

Accounting and the rest of the world

Just took the accounting test... and it was bad... it was hard even if I studied [although I didn't put as much effort as I should have]. Parang it's coz accounting is all I have now, I have to do better. I mean, I go for mediocre results in everything else [yes, that means EVERYTHING else] and since accounting is one of the few things that can actually identify me... I feel the urge to excel [other thing could be basketball, and KoL? HAHA] I don't know... parang I have to be special at something... at least... right? After all, I heard a saying that meant something like you should rather be great at something than good in everything.

Pero wala... still the same... I'm still a sissy and quite GREAT at being one too... hahaha! Maybe it's an asset? HAHA yeah right! Same old story, same old ending... I'm still the guy who runs away... ganun talaga eh... bading! Haha!

Recently, I've been having a lot of time alone... I mean having the oppurtunity to play KoL for 7 and a half hours straight gives me enough time for myself... parang loner na nga ako in a sense. I mean... if mao wasn't my classmate, Id be having breaks ALONE! I'm not complaining though, it's like I lost the "desire" to find people to be with... parang if you're not readily available, I wont go to all the trouble to look for you... haha! Did that make sense?

And all that time alone has made me think once again... WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE? I'm not asking about all those great achievements coz I'm thinking it's too much to count... but I'm actually asking something else... parang I want to do something great... something real... something that MATTERS! I don't know what yet, or how.. or even why... parang I want to accomplish something to prove something to myself. And I don't want those cliche goals where I say I will get better grades or better study habits or something like that. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING THAT'S CONCRETE... any suggestions?

But then again... there's something about me that just stops halfway. I'd like to say it's coz I'm lazy but I'm thinking its bigger than that [although it is really part of the reason].. something stops me... and that thing has been my weakness for as far as I can remember... what other people think! I mean... why is that so important right? It shouldn't be, but somehow society has been successful in teaching me that it MATTERS what other people think... maybe for decency's purpose, but what about other things? Ahk... I'm not making sense anymore

BASTA! I want do change what I've been doing recently, because I've been doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING [except KoL haha]

Or maybe it's time to accept my place among the loners... at least I'll have a place, right?

Accept