Vicious Cycle

Yesterday, my groupmates and I went to Calamba, Los Baños and somewhere in Batangas where I kinda almost died... haha! It was very tiring. We left at around 8am and finished at around 7pm... and then I ended up in 56th.

I was being sarcastic, but what the fuck right? I'm still sure of myself. Maybe I should just drop it coz everyone seems to be worried about me... and I mean EVERYONE.

Am I really that fragile? WAHAHA!

Don't worry guys... I wasn't nicknamed *toot* for nothing. And you guys probably don't even know that nickname. Haha!

Another year ends...

So, last year... around this time, I was still contemplating whether I'm crossing the line too much with regards to my feelings for... what?!?!? Damn! This was the KIND OF emo time... but whatever.

Last year I aimed to get a QPI of 3... I got straight B's and a W.. so I think that's close enough [although it's really just 2.58 so its actually not very close]. I also decided to got to the gym but ended up not going still. December last year wasn't at all exciting... This year's December is way better... I think... Haha!

So anyway, what I need you guys to give me for Christmas:
- A new bag
- A new iPod
- New shoes
- New earrings
- NEW NECKLACE THAT I WILL TREASURE FOREVER [the necklace that was stolen from me, I never removed it except when I play basketball]
- New wallet
- New slippers

DAMN IT! I hate thieves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously, especially those that make a fool out of you

I just visited the 4A halls friendster account... Ooohh memories... haha! Hmmm, CHEESECAKES should have a friendster account... or not... stupid friendster haha!

Negotiations, Unspoken Rules and Sweets

Weird... So I was out drinking last night when I was texted that I should be home by night time last night. I decided to just drink 'til 11 and then go home. Unfortunately by that time, I was having fun so I decided to extend thinking I'm already dead anyway. I drank some more until I ended up in Jaqs house and still drinking. We finished at around 6AM. I told myself I'd rest for a while then go home.... I FELL ASLEEP!!! Woohoo!

Bottomline? I can't go out... for an unknown period of time. Oh well... at least they didn't make a big fuss out of it, not like last week's Jboys Christmas Inuman. Hahaha! I couldn't negotiate, I told them I'd be home last night.

Again, trouble showing emotions. It's my brother's birthday today... can't even greet him properly... wahahaha! I think there's something about showing love within the family... haha!

Oh and some stupid thing happened yesterday. There was this ass who was jealous and it was supposedly because of me. I mean, what the fuck... and he looked dead serious about it. Haha! And since I didn't want any trouble [for obvious reasons... but mind you, at first I thought it was Berch who was in trouble so I was very willing to help], we talked and turns out... he's drunk haha! But fuck, if the conversation turned bad, I'm betting he was gonna start kicking my ass... that's how serious he was... the fun part? There was none... but it was kinda funny haha

Seems like I keep doing the wrong things for the past couple of weeks... So I'm hoping I didn't get into anything I'm gonna be regretting...

Fragmented ideas...

So anyway, I'm technically grounded. I wasn't told that I was... we just have this unspoken rule that if I'm [my brother-in-law] pissed at you, don't even dare asking me for permission, for absolutely anything. So that's why I'm technically grounded... especially since it's the break so I have no choice but to stay home. Funny thing is, I'm not at all pissed or anything... I know it was my fault hahaha! I guess it was just bad timing.

Writing whatever that pops into my head

Oooohh.... *tulo laway* [ok, maybe not everything that pops into my head]

And even when I had a candy in my mouth, I still hoped it was chocolate.

Greatness is earned

Saturday night was good. It was... different. And on top of everything, I didn't get drunk [I did puke, but I wasn't drunk].

Highlight of the night: I was first mate for 5 seconds! Ok, maybe just for 2.5 seconds... hahaha! I did a stunt where if I drank the remaining matador straight [which was kind off 3/4 the glass, note: not a shot glass] I'd be earning my spot as first mate... unfortunately, after drinking everything, 2.5 seconds after, I puke everything out so... technically I failed. Haha!

Sneakiest moment of the night: I was one of the three who ate the liempo even before it entered Jaqs house... no one knows that! Haha! Coz everyone was puzzled how come there were so little left when people decided to start eating it.

Worst part of the night: Jaqs was pissed at... and Berch was pissed at... hahaha! But really, it wasn't funny.

Awkward part of the night: There was this time when I... oh wait... let's just skip it... haha!

All in all, I got a really bad hangover, got reprimanded for my action when I got home and delayed my doing of the finance hw... but still... I had fun!

Life is full of surprises

So by now you, yes im talking to you reader, already know that I got drunk during curfew and Raf carried me all the way out of LGV... that I was robbed of my things because I am too kind and too gullible... and that... well that's it.

So while I'm basking in my pool of depression for all the badluck that's been circling around me while watching Grey's Anatomy in my room alone all day long, I thought to myself [which had nothing to do with what I was doing], do I really want to go through college cheating? I mean come on.. you can't really cheat when you're done with college [well you can, but then you'd probably be breaking the law] but yeah... I want to stop cheating. [Oh, and I don't cheat in accounting hahahaha! I tried, it didn't work]

And I should really stop lying... I mean, I'm turning into an Usopp and I can't add the lying part coz i'd really be an Usopp then... not that I lie about important stuff... but I kinda lie a lot.. damn it...

Win-Loss record, 1-4... amazing... I guess there's always next year... Or maybe I just don't have what it takes to be captain... darn

I'm so depressed, I'm happy...

Really