Delayed, Delayed, Delayed

Happy 1st Anniversary! It's a few days late (as you constantly remind me), but better late than never, yes?

I haven't been feeling as writer-y for the past couple of months, losing myself to work, relationship, games and rest. I've always done writing on my free time (and apparently, my "gaming time" is not part of my free time).

But today I am on leave, so I'll write something short.

I'm sorry if my anniversary plans aren't as polished as it should have been. I could've prepared more, but I wasn't able to. I'll try better next year.
I had fun, regardless of the failed "home-cooked" fancy dinner. At least we tried.
Let's do it again on December and maybe things'll be better.

I've always claimed that writing was an escape. I think I resort to writing, to avoid drowning in self-pity. God knows I've had my fair share of trials these past couple of years and I never really had anyone to hold on to for support. It's probably why I've always had it in me to be a loner. Give me a good game/book/hobby and you can leave me in a room alone for the rest of the day, maybe even a week.

Which is why having a partner completely changes things. I now have someone to reach out to, anytime. Be it to celebrate, to have fun, to complain, or whatever, I can just reach out. I'm not saying I can't do some of those things with close friends, but it's never as simple and honest as with a partner. And instead of writing all my thoughts into a blog, I usually end up just talking to my partner, and eventually forget it, if it was just a passing idea or a random realization.

I can't say I don't want to write anymore, that isn't really the case, but I've been writing less, and that could be less-er.

However, people who truly know me, can just as easily claim that I've been extra lazy. And they wouldn't be completely wrong either.

(So.. I just wrote a post rationalizing why I don't write posts anymore hahaha.)