Sleep Talking

2013 is ending soon, and we won't be together. It's 5AM and all I can think about is you. Hachi and I have had quite an adventure, going to various places, but we really miss you already. I'm having difficulty imagining I have to go on like this for 20 more days. Those 3 weeks can't come fast enough.

And not being able to talk to you for a couple of days doesn't help a bit.

I miss you so bad.

Clutch

It's always a big deal to perform in the clutch. That moment as you feel time ticking, the pressure building, and challenge rising. That unbelievable adventure of overcoming all these, speaks of incredible victory.

I always believed I performed in the clutch. And not just in basketball, but in life. I always relied on my God-given talent of waiting it out until the last second before taking action. Relishing the victory of a close-call, what could be better? Right?

Well, I just realized I may have been fooling myself. Performing in the clutch? No, I was merely cramming. Taking my precious time procrastinating, waiting until the moment I feel as if I just have enough time if I work on it straight until it's done.

Showmanship. I always banked on the thought that I'm better than most because I can do it when it matters. I failed to realize that most people are better because they can manage it, they don't have to perform in the clutch. It's over before it has to be performed in the closing moments.

Preparation. I always lacked it.

Problem is, I don't really know if I want to fix it. Nor do I think I can fix it. I guess I just have to manage it somehow...

As long as I perform in the clutch, right?

Home Alone

Day 1

I didn't get to bring you to the airport, but that may be for the best. I might be more emotional then.

I'm expecting this to be very challenging, having to last a month without you, but at least I have Hachi to keep me company.

I'm gonna miss you, as a matter of fact, I miss you already.

I'm definitely counting down to the last day.

See you in a month!


Day 3

You were disappointed we couldn't chat. I'm sorry if you feel like I'm not being around. It may sound like an excuse but I really prefer to be around some people rather than being alone. I'd miss you too much then.

Also, I didn't want to get in the way of you enjoying your vacation. I don't want you feeling tied down with me asking you to update me all the time.

After I woke up today, I was a little sad. You weren't anywhere for me to hug, so I cooked breakfast and watched. I watched until I went to Biz's place, went home, watched and now I'm getting ready to sleep.

I miss you already.