You aspire for Comfort but settle for Convenience

It's been a while since I've written anything on this page.

It's been a while since I've written anything at all. Life has been consumed with work, play, work, play, work, play.

I've always thought we would get this far - provided you were patient with me. I've enjoyed being your annoying partner over these past 7 years, so I hope you look forward to more years together.

I've always feared I was too boring to keep this up. I didn't think I'd have hobbies I could share. I'm not exactly the type of person who tries new things spontaneously. If there were interesting things in my head, they're probably left unsaid. But it worked out. You ended up interested in Dota and the esports scene. I'm sure one day we would be able to watch a TI together. I hope that happens sooner than later. I want you to know I'm willing to try new things with you too. I know I keep bringing up money - but that at the end of the day, if you want to do it, and you want to do it with me, then I'm game.

Over the course of our relationship you've asked a number of times why I loved you. And while there are just as many reasons as there hairs on Hachi, the one encompassing reason is that I am home with you. I don't have to be socially acceptable around you - sometimes it oozes out even when we're in public. I worry you think I've gotten too comfortable with you - and I do try to be responsible sometimes - but I hope you never get tired of who I am. You know me through and through - which is probably why you get annoyed easily - and I'm not sure where I'm going with this so I'll just let this thought trail off....

I feel like we'll be starting a new chapter in our story sooner rather than later, and I hope we are ready for that challenge.

Ah, I remember where I was going with the thought earlier - that I hope you never misinterpret my comfort as just simple convenience. I love you because you are home, you are my safety bubble when the rest of the world is pushing me down. You are who I look forward to to be beside me when I sleep. You are who I want to see with me, 10, 20, 30 years from now - still probably complaining about the same damned thing - like go to the doctor or go to the dentist. When all is said and done, you are who I want to share anything and everything that I have and more.

And when this next chapter does come, I know for sure by the end of it that I'd still be holding your hand - somewhere, someday -  while having breakfast on a balcony.