The Pressure and the Rock

This will probably feel like an obligatory yearly post, and it probably is - but please bear with me.

People say that everyone has their own timing, their own journey. We've been together for over 8 years, more than half of my adult life - and having our own timings is more evident now than ever.

If you asked me 10 years ago how I expected life to go - I would've probably been stumped. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do then - I was just about to finish college and honestly didn't know where to go next.

If you asked me 8 years ago - and you did - I said I want to be married by 30, probably have 2 - 4 kids, own a house - all in all just be settled. I'm almost 33 - not married, no kids, no house. It sounds like a failure - and in some areas it probably is - but it was quite a journey.

Not surprisingly, if you asked me now how I expect life to go - it's still the same. Get married, have kids, own a house - it just wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, but I'm almost there. I know I've been saying that for years, and I know you're probably tired of waiting, but it's a new decade - a new story, a new journey - soon.

You're probably scared I'm too settled down to feel any pressure - and I completely understand where you're coming from, but trust me - you'll have to trust me sometimes lol.

I don't even know where I'm going with this - I haven't written for the longest time and I've always said that writing was therapeutic. I haven't felt like writing over the past couple of years because I didn't feel the need to - having you listening to me, supporting me has been more than enough. But you can feel what's weighing on me with what I've wrote about - and I'm just confident now that I have what I need to follow through.

I love you on your good days, and I love you on your bad days. I loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you tomorrow and for the rest of our lives together.

Happy New Year!