It's about time

 I've been drafting this in my head for a few days now but I can't seem to build off on a theme.

9 years. Sounds pretty long huh? But it seems like it was just yesterday when I planned an anniversary cooking fancy dinner for you, ending up with you cooking most of it. Or that out-of-town trip to the beach in Zambales,just riding the bus together, after-shift. My memory is pretty poor, but I'm pretty sure those days were among our early ones together.

I remember that time we ate in that expensive steak place at a time when I still had my B5 salary, doing our 5-year plan in Tagaytay, our trips to Palawan for seafood, or that surprise tour in Malaysia and adventures in India.

I cherish these memories. I regret not writing about those because I'm scared I'll forget them. I don't ever want to forget them. 

We've talked before about how I felt I had pretty bad memory - not a lot of details I could remember from childhood, or even experiences with friends. I might remember them when someone else brings it up, but for some reason really hard to remember on my own.

My theory was - I probably have a hard time remembering because I rarely talk about my experiences. So my brain isn't trained to recall events I experience in my file - I always remember those moments I felt some sort of regret because I probably keep replaying in my head what I could've done better. I'm slightly getting off-topic though because that wasn't my point.

Point is - I had different plans in my head this year before this Covid-19 situation happened. It's taken a while, and probably wasn't even a surprise given the situation - but I hope you said yes. It's taken me a while to get here, I even thought I could do it a few years earlier - but life happens unforgivingly . As adults who didn't get "hand-me-downs" - I'm still proud of where we are now.

Happy Anniversary hun! You are my life, you are my all. I've felt alone before you - and you changed that. You give me so much more credit than I deserve, believe in me when even I don't, push me when I feel like giving up, and support me when I need it. I can't imagine life without you, and it's finally time to make that official.

Will you marry me?