I guess it's true

I choked again...

Although in a not so important time...

I wonder if I can proceed as planned...

Crap...

Closed door

Ok... so I ended up planning something... and ended up being too chicken to pull it off. Sissy boy...

Richmond Hotel thing with the block was good. Lost in poker twice... drank ALMOST alone in the latter part of the night... sang out loud "come what may" from moulin rouge and some other songs... threw water from the 12th floor and hit some guy in a motor cycle... almost died because I couldn't breathe normally for around 10 mins... having an "intimate" talk with some blockmate... and having the best time in the... hahaha!

But... it doesn't change the fact that I'm a sissy... and I don't really like being a sissy... that's crap

Anyway, saturday came... just kinda hung out in katip and Jose's place and then back to Katip and then home. Basketball didn't push through that day but rescheduled the next day, sunday night... we lost again... that's crap... good thing someone's funding our... betting money haha!

And now stuck here... too lazy to do anything right now... haven't taken a bath and haven't eaten lunch.. Zzzz... I need more sleep... my body hurts like hell... I hope our opponents today forgot that we're supposed to play later... hahaha...

I have a new... plan... and all I need is a chance to proceed.

Ready for IAC

I am... unfortunately, funds aren't haha!

KoL has pretty much been keeping me busy for the past couple of weeks. I have three characters and regularly play them hahaha! Crap... vices... good thing it doesn't take very long to play.

Planning ahead? It just makes you think, which isn't very good so I'd rather not.

I got to wore my worn out pants again... after a very long time! Haha! Good ventilation, methinks...

I'm doing a stupid favor for my niece tomorrow. Going to Gilmore and have something fixed... tsk tsk... laziness... darn gosh shit.... haha.... and then... Harry Potter. Let's hope my money won't be put to waste in that movie.

IAC... IAC... IAC... IAC... IAC... YEAH!!!!!

Championship run! Keep me busy! Haha

I'm back and you know it

Well no, not really, but finally blogger works on my PC again... haha!

Unfortunately, some crap happened to my PC and almost 6 years of memory... precious memories... all GONE! From that self captured image of me and my fake earring to those of the unforgetable La Union Trip. All my precious files... all those journal entries I never bothered putting online because they were... personal hahaha! All random files... even my 10 page Royal Rumble event [yeah, I kinda wrote a 10 page single spaced Royal Rumble Scenario... WAHAHA]

Last night, my 12-yr old nephew played the piano at home... he was playing "eyes on me" from FF8. I taught him that... and after.. I dont know... maybe 4 years he still remembers it. I dont even remember it anymore. But I just kinda guessed the notes so I'd probably remember if I tried it again.

I saw you smiling at me. Was it real or just my fantasy

I was watching this movie and then a line hit me. "Life's simple. You make choices and you don't look back." Wala lang... it just sounded memorable. HAHA!

Basketball. It's like a release for me... I don't know... on the court, when I'm with my team [and by 'my' I mean 'our' team since I just 'play' the part of the captain haha] there's a different sense of... confidence. Something I needed better in real life, unfortunately.. everything just got cramped in basketball. Haha! I can take charge in a basketball game.. but to do the same in real life? MAN! that would be a challenge haha!

I guess confidence and arrogance don't really have much difference... I think it's how you carry that confidence or arrogance that people see it as such.

I have got the best supporters anyone can dream of. Why? Because a wise friend once told me, "malamang hindi!" and another one, "asa" hahaha! Yup... so much for confidence in battle. Ok, championship run... keep me busy. Haha

I'm still the coward I always was... difference now, I've gone farther than I thought I would.

Or so I think...

My head is battling with my heart. My logic has been torn apart