Procrastination

Listening to John Mayer while procrastinating on a report that I should have been done with yesterday.

It feels as if I'm not prepared for this huge responsibility of running a business. Or maybe I act this way since I still treat it as an academic requirement, even if its not, but either way, it seems that I am not ready for this type of responsibility. Did I make the wrong decision?

Would it be wrong to give up now and screw over my fellow 'groupmates' (for lack of better term) by leaving the business and just look for a real job? I fear I might do more harm staying with the business than just doing it on the side. I'm confused. I thought this was the safe, comfortable and easy way out of looking for a job. This time, I have more people to disappoint. Makes me feel like a failure, even if I haven't actually started.

These insecurities need to get out of my head. Besides that, I just gotta be more mature in handling this business. I know the solutions. I know the steps. I just don't know if I can do it.

Even now, I find it a hassle to go all the way home to Las Piñas just to vote... even if I consider voting an integral duty of every person for his country and his fellowmen. It wouldn't sound like something I'd write but I believe it anyway.

Grow up... You need to.