I counter

Nor do you know how it feels to be lied at, cheated and more...

To be heard doesn't mean they should be neutral. They are free to choose a side, and from knowing me, you probably know I'm not very persuasive. Maybe you doubt the stories I told them... you are free to give them your side. But I think liking someone else during our relationship and actually entertaining those feelings are not likely to be chosen as a side. It's hard to be neutral when you know there is a victim. I gave them my faults... some did say they were "nakakasakal" but not enough reason for you to do this to me. Very little in fact compared to what you did.

I admit, my friends hate you. But you wanna know what really sucks? I can't seem to hate you the way they do. Even if I was the person who had to go through it...

Anger... Well good you felt anger instead of pain. I was in pain but... I was angry too... Monday, the moment you blurted out the truth... about the date.. I was just mad... I wanted to hit something... someone... but no. Tuesday... you were cold... I talked to you to try if maybe you want to fix it... as the conversation went, you were cold... so I decided to finally end it. I was mad still... calmer maybe. But finally, wednesday... I had to read that fucked up entry. I want so much to spread to the world what was written there, but I guess no one can see it... I was really mad... I read it just before I cursed you.

Earlier today, I thought... maybe we could work things out. Give it another shot. My friends keep on telling me.. no, don't you dare go back... don't even think about it. Bu I did think about it.. I wanted it back.. but now... to see you actually try to say that you are right... ouch! There must really be no regret for what you did... And I'm being stupid to think it could work out.

You're friends can't hate me! What the fuck did I do to them? What the fuck did I do to you? I didn't do anything wrong... at least not that grave. My friends CAN hate you because you liked someone else and entertained those feelings even when we were together. You asked for space, I asked for less time with him... I gave you space, you used it to spend time with him. They can hate you.

Maybe I'll go talk to you later for one last time... Maybe I should just forget about the questions I want to ask...

ANYWAY..

I needed last night. Thank you blockmates and I apologize for not being there 3/4 of the time. I met a lot of new people... that's burger, mabe(?), may, abby and cha... through louie. I didn't think I was this kind of person... but I just met them and yet it felt comfortable.

And this I can say... there truly is a first time for everything. Remember my principles? My so-called "principles".... THEY ARE GONE

And I was happy last night. Or at least the latter part of it.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED
I just didn't feel like celebrating with my block... a person asked "jay, bakit di mo lagi sinasama GF mo pag labas tayo?" I couldn't answer... I said "ex ko?" and then the person just kept saying sorry. After that, I decided to just stay outside and smoke.

Bliss... I ended up running from Cantina to Xanland. My feet were really light and it felt like I'm couldn't feel my legs by the second. I actually ran past Xanland, up to KFC... and back.

I want more.

Don't hate me for this... but I can't just read and ignore. You try to prove you're right... I try to prove I'm right... we're not going anywhere.