Whatever happened to stupid theories and philosophical bullshit?
I know what... replaced by
unending rant. Rants that aren't even supposed to matter anymore. Stupid rants that everyone is probably sick and tired of. I know I am... but sometimes, I don't know why, I have to write it. Force of habit, I guess... So now, I'm ranting to stop ranting? Haha! Weird...
I have always wanted to ask a question. I never did get to ask it. I never had to courage to do so... And I still can't... WAHAHA!
But I do have another question... Are people happy? Can people truly say they are happy? Because at some point, a person has to contemplate on himself and a person will ALWAYS want something more... therefore there will always be something missing. And I believe that if you are incomplete... you are unhappy? Hrmm... Think about it...
people will ONLY be contented, but never happy, because people are greedy. Or maybe happiness is just a temporary feeling. Maybe our natural state is indifference. Maybe...
Time... time is eternal. Time is pure. Time does not choose sides. Time is neither an enemy nor a friend. Time is true.
Time is reality.
But as of this moment, I consider time as an ally. Time heals all wounds according to most people... therefore time would heal my wounds. And time would permit something. Time would allow me to feel this pressure of having to get good grades. Time... time... time.
And if I could go back in time... I wouldn't change anything... not even that point when I had to be born. Why? Because life is unfair.... because life sucks... because life is naturally a pain in the ass...
But if you think about it, life's unfairness makes it... LIFE. Without those times you had to cry because of something, without those times you had to see grades that could get you kicked out of a school you have wanted all your life, without those times you had to feel self pity because of what you've lost, without those times you had to wish for something to be changed.... life would be but a simple, boring, no climax story that no one would bother to read. Think about it, why do people like drama and violence so much? Why is it that books, games and tv shows with such themes click with the crowd? Right? But then again, when you have reached the lowest you can in life [or the lowest you ever have been]... something like this probably wouldn't sound so bad...
And that goes to show how powerful emotions are. And this statement needs no elaboration. I believe everyone accepts this fact. I know someone who WAS very close to me to have been overwhelmed by emotions... and let's just leave it at that. I was too... and let's leave it at that as well. If you don't believe... try and remember when you felt a strong emotion... and what was done about it.
Hrmm... and after about a year or so... we go back to my saying...
HATRED [anger] is the most powerful emotion... more powerful than love. Why? Because we are human. Why is this related? Because humans prefer something they understand.
Everyone understands hate. No one understands love. It's as simple as that. [well, probably not... but these are just opinions]
I know... some of these stuff are probably written to convince me about some points... but I think they're what I believe in... at least for the moment... this moment.
Don't hate me though... I'm just someone trying to think.
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Haha! After rereading the entry... I can't help but see that everything in the entry seems to have been written to write about the hatred part... hahaha!