I have a crush on

Dr. Cameron

Hahaha! Shit... fuck man. I don't know what I'm supposed to do in this online enlistment thing and the registration. Craphead. I don't even know if I have 1.975 or whatever it was required to stay... gaddamit.... maybe I'll take an LOA... hahaha... but really... I was serious... crap

Ok... that's pretty much it. I'm actually in a hurry... someone's trying to kill me :D

Find me here

And speak to me...

Game again tomorrow... Can I pull off a great performance? I just need one. I have this thirst of wanting to prove myself in basketball... I don't know why, but I just do... Apparently, this is the only thing that I've been trying to excel in [I can't even add accounting coz I don't put any effort to excel]. Please give me a good game tomorrow.

Home on a friday night. Tangina... I'm supposed to be out, unfortunately, I'm not because of my stupid phone... oh well... that's crap.

Oh, and I have this video of me dancing... It isn't very nice, but its funny... at least I think it is. I can't put it in my PC though... I don't know why. I was planning on putting it in my multiply.

Makes me miss that time when we had this dance thing for a competition back in grade 6. We won, and it was damn fun! Doesn't seem like me, right? Haha... scripted dances, the audience, the lights, the music... haha... Ok that's enough... I probably wouldn't want to do it again anyway.

Do you know, do you know? HAHAHA! Let's dance

The Big 0

Okay, so maybe I'm not used to being a role player anymore... after all, being the main man gives you so much more confidence than being the role player. We lost our first game in the SR alumni basketball league. How many points did I make? 0! Haha! Just like my jersey number. A BIG FAT ZERO. And worse, I actually had a good number of attempts... maybe 5 or 6 shot attempts... and none went in. Only the first shot was close, everything else was utter embarrassment.

I was actually shaking a bit in that game. Very nervous. I felt intimated... and when I thought about it, I wasn't that much intimated by the opponents, like I said I did... but instead I was intimidated by my teammates. I mean, my whole highschool life they were the varsity members, they were the stars... so technically I felt that I didn't have what it takes to play in that level... that was what got me nervous... stupid fuck... haha.. gotta do better next time.

But all in all I had fun in that game... the game's pressure was definitely not on me... [for a time I was actually cheering that we should lose so that in the fourth quarter I can just play casually and not think that I'll make another mistake] This is again another reason why I'm better one on one... I mean, no mistakes since it'll only be me and no one else saying I made that mistake.

GADDAMIT! Gotta practice more. I want to make 200 shots a day... unfortunately, I don't have an 'atsoy'... HAHAHA!

So turn away, cause I'm awful just to see...

Sembreak '07

Boring.... Bored

What have I been doing? Basketball, PSP and sleep.... I got 1/12 for basket, 1/6 for sleep and 5/8 of my day for PSP.... wahahaha! PSP is life the other 3 hours? random stuff... crap

1 chapter a week for one piece sucks... I shouldn't have finished it... now I've got nothing for sembreak...

Please please please!!!! Don't forget me when anyone makes plans for the break...

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It's lost

Listen closer to the verse I lay

I left that accounting LT with luck... I didn't even think about the test after... I'd be happy to get a 70... haha... crap... plus, I actually experimented, I drank beer before taking the test, from 4pm up to 6pm, then I took the test haha! If I get high, then it's time I believed in the power of beer. So basically, I got to study at around 2pm, gave up by 4pm... and yeah, I'm just doing my best to make this excuse for getting a lower grade in accounting... hahaha!

THE TRUE BOND OF FRIENDSHIP! Haha! That is the most important thing there is... one piece has really affected me.... I get very emotional when I read it... haha!

I wonder if I made another wrong move... ehhhhhh... haha! I felt terrible this morning... My head was hurting so I wasn't able to go to school, even when I was supposed to report... tsk tsk... BAD!

This thing I'm supposed to do, it shouldn't be such a big deal right? I mean... It shouldn't be that hard, its not like anything bad is gonna happen, technically, it's just like telling stories, except it ain't that simple... so what exactly am I afraid of?

*cough cough*

I'm sick... and it sucks... crap... I really don't feel well... unfortunately, I no longer have the luxury of cutting any classes... *sigh*

I read this thing about psychogenic disorders, something about a scientific study where emotions actually affect ones health... HAHAHA!

I want a great adventure... It's time for the world to sink and the pirate era to begin! Haha!

Weaklings grow stronger...

I'm a bad ass

So again, I couldn't sleep right? So I decided to pick out a DVD and watch til I end up sleeping... I tried to choose something I wouldn't watch so I'd get sleepy while watching and I chose "Little Manhattan". I ended up watching the whole movie, and worse, I liked it.

It had this innocent thing [the exact thing I'm looking for right now, REALLY] and "torpe" thing.. like me, chicken shit! HAHA! ANYWAY, the movie had great lines about love and that crap so I decided to look for its script... but I couldn't find any... does it have another movie title? Oh well...

Oh sweet innocence how I miss thee... hahaha! Makes one remember about that first crush... oh so long ago, and hell that crush lasted for 7 years... how many times did I talk to her? I figure I could probably count it with my fingers if I could remember... chicken shit.

So yeah, I still blame my bestfriend then who spread to the whole school who my crush was [unintentionally, I figure] coz he told our adviser then it just went out of control... yeah, imagine in grade 2 and the WHOLE SCHOOL knows that you have a crush on this girl... I'm thinking that's gonna hurt your style right [if ever you did have]... I mean, come on, grade 2... that's gonna get you paranoid and shit... So yeah, I blame that faithful event [oh and an extra fact, my bestfriend and I had the same crush then, craphead]

Oooh... memories... Oh there, I remembered a line... something about relationships aren't about how long you are together but about those memories that you just don't throw away... something like that... haha

But of course, I'd love a relationship that'd last... that's the plan, at least.

Some people think of me as this, and some people think of me as that... So where does the problem lie? I don't know which "some" to correct, because I have no idea who I am...

Do you?

There is just no word for it

Or my vocabulary is just too small...

Once in a while I tend to throw big words when I write stuff, most of the time to make myself seem smart... hahaha! BUT, it kinda has an upside, since I don't want to be embarrassed, I end up knowing exactly what that big word mean... OH YEAH!

Kinda like how I treat life... I make myself seem more knowledgeable about life, when in reality I know so little... I make myself seem different from who I really am... like making myself seem stupid when in fact, I am a genius... WAHAHAHA!

Over analyzing methinks... funny thing is, actually... there is not funny part.

Well, at least this is a better reason for sleepless nights instead of having to study all night because I was cramming... wahaha!

There are a lot of fears I don't want to admit... even to myself... and that makes me a sissy.

So what do I do? I just smile :)