The Big 0

Okay, so maybe I'm not used to being a role player anymore... after all, being the main man gives you so much more confidence than being the role player. We lost our first game in the SR alumni basketball league. How many points did I make? 0! Haha! Just like my jersey number. A BIG FAT ZERO. And worse, I actually had a good number of attempts... maybe 5 or 6 shot attempts... and none went in. Only the first shot was close, everything else was utter embarrassment.

I was actually shaking a bit in that game. Very nervous. I felt intimated... and when I thought about it, I wasn't that much intimated by the opponents, like I said I did... but instead I was intimidated by my teammates. I mean, my whole highschool life they were the varsity members, they were the stars... so technically I felt that I didn't have what it takes to play in that level... that was what got me nervous... stupid fuck... haha.. gotta do better next time.

But all in all I had fun in that game... the game's pressure was definitely not on me... [for a time I was actually cheering that we should lose so that in the fourth quarter I can just play casually and not think that I'll make another mistake] This is again another reason why I'm better one on one... I mean, no mistakes since it'll only be me and no one else saying I made that mistake.

GADDAMIT! Gotta practice more. I want to make 200 shots a day... unfortunately, I don't have an 'atsoy'... HAHAHA!

So turn away, cause I'm awful just to see...