From Anonymous Comments to Finding a New Place to Live

Well that anonymous comment from the previous post was a welcomed surprise. I've always wanted to improve on writing, just never took steps on actually doing it. It'd be more of a surprise if that comment actually came from a complete stranger.

Anyway, I haven't found a solution to my most basic problem of finding a new place to live. After running away from home seven months ago, I've been staying with a really good friend who has been supportive from the start. In other words, he allowed me to be a freeloader. I promised myself I'd pay him back someday, and I will, just not anytime soon.

I've been looking for a new place since his grandparents are coming to visit and they would be staying at his place. He only lives with his dad so I was able to move in but now I'd be too ashamed to stay longer. I had planned on leaving sooner, but it was much harder than I thought.

I have found a temporary solution. I'll be staying with a different friend for a week, and another for the next week. I have a few more friends I can bother but I don't think this is the right solution. Should I run back home? I've been asking myself that question for quite a while now but I've always arrived at NO. Pride stops me. I want to show that I could live on my own, to prove it more to myself than anyone else.

Life really hasn't been kind. Although sometimes I think I don't let life be kind to me. Maybe I'm just making all the wrong decisions that keeps me stranded in this hole. It's hard to be confident and show optimism when things don't really go your way.

I want to be happy. I want to at least be contented with my life. At present, I can admit that I'm not happy or contented. Not even close. I show this facade of having things working out, but it's really not. I'm not happy.

I sure hope I'll have a place to call 'home' soon... It's been years since I had one.