Year end survey

In 2006, did you...

1.fall in love with someone that wasjust a friend?- Hrmm...

2.fall in love at all?- I think I did...

3.lose any friends?- Pretty much yeah...

4.make any new friends?- Yes

5.make any new enemies?- I don't know... I don't like having enemies

6.develop any new hobbies?- STUDYING!

7.get older?- uh.. yeah?

8.do anything you regret?- Hrmm... nope :D... well except for that thing I did... nevermind. Haha

9.go to any parties?- I guess...

10.accomplish anything?- Not one bit..

11.make much money?- no.... sad

12.attend a wedding?- Nope...

13.attend a funeral?- Not recently, no

14.get any new family members?- not really

15.move away?- Nope

16.gain any new perspectives?- Definitely... what is rational, what is irrational, what is real, what is ideal.

17.get into a verbal fight?- Hahaha

18.get into a physical fight?- Not that I know of... except that one within the family haha

19.attend any sporting events?- PE?

20.get arrested?- Not this year! Haha!

21.get kicked out of a store,restaurant or any other kind of business?- Hrmmm... i dont think so

22.get offered a job?- nope

23.learn anything?- A HELL LOT

24.dump your bf/gf?- Hrmm...

25.get dumped by your bf/gf?- Hrmm...

26.change as a person?- Definitely... for the better even!

27.get any new piercings?- I WANT TO!

28.attend a concert?- I think I did... unless I'm imagining things

29.travel out of state?- No...

30.travel out of the country?- No...

31.spend much money?- Oh.. so here's something I kinda regret... hahahaha!

32.download any music?- No... net's too slow... oh wait! I did! When we still lived in Prince David

33.try out any new looks?- Not really... but I do let my hair grow long then get a haircut... pakalbo!

34.eat a food that you had never eaten before?- Maybe... most likely

35.go golfing?- Nah..

36.go bowling?- Not recently I think... not sure

37.start to resent something or someone that you used to like?- Funny you should ask... hahahaha!

In 2006, how many....

1.different places did you work?- no work

2.times did you go out drinking?- Uh... hahaha!

3.times did you smoke marijuana?- Once... hated that day... terrible. REGRET! [oh, another regret]

4.times did you go to the movies?- Definitely not a lot... probably 4-5 times... hahaha! DVD nalang!

5.people did you make out with?- 1? 2? 3? 4? 5?... yeah sure... haha maybe in my dreams!

6.people did you have sex with?- I'm a proud virgin!

7.people tried to have sex with you?- Can't keep count. Too many... HAHAHAHA!

8.crushes did you have?- Dunno... a lot I guess...

9."rough nights" did you have?- Is this something sexual? I'm thinking none... unless rough night is a bad night... then... A LOT

In 2006, what was?

1.your favorite day of the year?- It used to be... WAHAHAHA! But now it's Oct.. something... hahahaha!

2.your favorite band?- I don't think I have any... Urbandub if not Lifehouse... but Lifehouse appealed to me just recently... so I don't know.

3.your least favorite day of the year?- Hahaha! Sometime in Oct too...

4.your favorite movie?- Maybe Casino Royale... just coz the poker scene was really stupid and unlikely

5.your favorite song of the year?- Blind by Lifehouse

6.the biggest event you attended?- Uh... I don't think I go to those...

7.something that didn't change at all this year?- Not sure... my clothes definitely... hahaha!

8.your favorite holiday?- Dunno...

Misc. questions about 2006 A.D.
1.were you in a hospital this year?- Was I? Don't think so

2.were you in an ambulance this year?- Haha no

3.did you make any big confessions in 06?- Hahaha! Nope... I think. Maybe next year

4.did you make friends with anyone of the opposite sex that you love but only embarrassed about anything you did this year?- Is this composed of two questions? eh?

5.what's the best thing to happen to you this year?- It has yet to happen? Maybe it'll happen in these remaining 4 hours... hahahaha! A MIRACLE!

6.did you meet anyone that you could see yourself marrying?- Awww... what a sad question. Did I? I did.. haha... tsk tsk... haha!

7.did anyone you have no feelings for confess to having feelings for you?- Hahaha! No... sana... para astig... hahaha! huwat?!?!

8.did you vote this year?- no

9.did you bring sexy back this year?- huwat?

10.was 2006 a great year, an average year or a bad year?- A great year turned to nightmare and slowly pacing itself for a new story.

11.what goals did you set for 2007?- Better grades? Better person? [how, vague] haha! Get a girlfriend and hope that she'll last forever... wait... not forever... since there is no forever... maybe last a lifetime... WAHAHA! OWYES!

WOW... I'm bored

It's a pity

I'm done with The Rule of Four. Book was nice... not bad... interesting... but I'm kinda disappointed with the ending... even if he tried to regain it, he let go, just like that... stupid. HAHA!
I'm doing
Oh, it's almost the New Year... I wonder if I can sneak out later.
something
Hrmm... I've nothing to say... pretty much I'm just hurt... hurt with all the things that's been happening? Nah... haha what what what?
really stupid
School soon... argh... haha... I have to change back to being SOMEWHAT responsible... hahaha!

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I promise my next post will be coded... something like this thing I read... haha... seems interesting.

The rule of three

There's always a triangle in love. Only sometimes, you learn to give up/ sacrifice that third point... and no, that triangle doesn't necessarily mean people. It could be love for smoking, drinking or whatever. Something has to be compromised.

I want a Katie to come by my life. Wahaha! Tangena... whattaloser!

Time has pushed me to the limits. It's always time that screws up everything. Waiting for example... it's time.. the length of the period of waiting... that screws up bad. Waiting for the right moment, waiting for the oppurtunity, waiting for an answer... actually, waiting for anything even as simple waiting in line or waiting for your ride home... waiting sucks... and that is time's nature. Destroys things... but

Let's say you waited for something and it happened. Let's say you waited 3 hours for your ride home. When it does finally arrive, there's a sense of peace... a sense of satisfaction... when you finally say "SA WAKAS!" So, waiting is a double edged blade. Waiting makes things sweeter... but it also creates that slow destruction where one says "Ayoko na..." Time really has this weird power... I can't explain it.

Time has this nature of... keeping things apart... err wait.. that's not right... this nature of... pulling things apart. Time whispers in your ear and says "tingnan mo, ang tagal mo nang andyan... di ka pa ba sawa sa paghintay?" or something like "andyan ka pa rin? magkakasama na kayo ng maraming taon ah, oras na para sa ibang bagay" or whatever... my point is... time somehow pulls things apart. Like say old childhood friends... sometimes... inseperable as you may seem... in time... you're relationship changes... pulling you farther. Other factors to these could be the fact of growing up... but isn't that caused by time?

But with all this... if there is a sense of hope... like say you hope for you friendship to last longer and longer and longer... sometimes... it does... hope, and acting upon it [or something like that] fends off time's nature of pulling things apart.

Ok, this probably doesn't make sense... I'm actually having a hard time expressing my thoughts into words. Argh... I hate being an incompetent writer person whatever... hahaha! Sucks shit... anyway... this leads to an idea I read that say we are destined to diverge. How from being a child close to it's family, slowly drifts away as he reaches his teens, drifts more as he reaches early adulthood and finally moves away to start his own family in which he would eventually grow distant with, no matter what, until he dies.

All because of time... MAYBE! HAHAHAHA!

I have this fear of having stupid insights... another reason why I don't like contributing ideas in groupworks and shit... so I write in this blog instead... and even here, I am... ashamed? HAHAHA! Whatever... character reformation... it's still ongoing... hahaha!

Oh, but these thoughts are incomplete... I'm just not good enough to explain what I want to say... idiot.

It's time

Find the next riddle

I want to try out cryptograpy, or whatever that's called. The book is really getting me interested. Plus, I'm falling in love with Katie... haha! That's probably one of the sweetest [although it wasn't really sweet, in its sense] thing a girl could do.... chapter 12, the thing she did just when they started dating... WTF?!?!?! Hahaha! Whatta loser mehn! What's happening to me!!!!

Maybe that's why I like reading. Its another one of my ways to escape the cruelty of reality. Plus, I get to imagine her PERFECT appearance, attitude, and whatnot. Haha! In the end, it's all just a happy daydream, no risks, no regrets... but nothing real either.

My idea of a perfect christmas is to spend it with you... oh wait, Christmas is over. Haha!

I think I'll just go play basketball tonight... practice, practice and even more practice. I find it an accomplishment to have a score of 15-11 against Joshua... hahaha! Plus, I blocked him once. YEAH!

Ok, so as of recently... only Josh has beaten me one on one. Dre, Espi, Paul and a few more people have yet to win against me. Espi even went as far as losing 4 straight... Mayabang ba? Haha! Totoo naman eh.

I'm here again... writing whatever it is I feel like writing... at least I'm out of LJ... where I used to flood friend's pages with 5 times a day entries.... WAHAHAHA! Pathetic piece of shit!

At least this Christmas break is turning out great. I was telling myself just a while ago that I would get scolded for sure [got home at around 5pm] but I didnt... they just noted that I didnt reply earlier... wow... they're really more lenient after I got that 1.6 QPI... 4 D's and all... HAHAHA! What a turn of events. I'm promising myself I'll give them a grade no lower than a 3.00 QPI. Haha! Impossible? Of course not! Work my ass off? Pretty much yeah... haha!

All I need to be is inspired and driven. Right now? I'm a little bit inspired, and I'm hell driven!

We should stay in this relationship

I hate you mehn! Hahaha! Tae... that pretty much sucked shit.

Anyway, Westgrove was relieving... but ended up feeling just a little more deprived than before. Hahaha! Tangina diretsuhan na nga... TIGANG!!! WAHAHAHA! ay kulang pa, tigang sa pagmamahal... BASTOS NYO GRABE! Hahaha!

Karaoke singing! Tangina! 100 score ko sa kantang boltes payb ng dating doon... wahaha! Da'best!

Clubbing on the first? Hahaha... makakatakas kaya ako? Hrmm... sana... then I can use that "brand new" polo.. hahaha!

Ok. I've decided. I will follow Ua's advice and go to gym... hahaha! New Year's resution: Gain weight, get muscles and get better in basketball. TRAINING TIME!

Ok, so I've got new threads, new phone... I just need a car gademmit! HAHAHAHA! Pang chicks yan!!! Haha!

Ima kill ya biatch! Ima fuckin kill ya! Better watch yo back! Hahaha! Yes, I'm a coward! HAHAHA!

Ako na dre. Ako na ang sasama sayo sa debut sa 2... kahit di ko kilala... hahaha!

Ok, I'm just writing bullshit now... Argh... babye.

Oh, I'm missing a certain someo.... huwaaat? Hahaha! Ulol! Gago!

Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight. Eat and gain weight.

Tangina... kelangan na toh! Haha!

Nothing

Despair.

I treasure sleep for it is only through my dreams that I can reach the unattainable.

Westgrove tomorrow. Another chance to get wasted. Haha! I now know that I can control myself. I won't drink when the situation isn't for it. I know I've been drinking a lot lately but that doesn't have to continue when school starts.

Smoking... I wonder if I can really cut down next year. I want to. [Plus, it could test if I can really quit for the person I love... if it requires quitting... whenever that may happen... whoever that may be... hahaha!] Ok maybe I can't... but I can try? HAHAHA! [Or if I'm lucky, I'd end up loving someone who smokes... HAHAHA!] Naahh... I should stay away from love... hahaha! I should stick to academics.

Time is not my ally after all... I posted a blog in my multiply. Hahaha!

Anyway... I'm reading a new book. I think it's The Rule of Four or something... I'm not sure. Haha! Stupid reader. It seems nice. I tried reading Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde but I got the other book just recently so I stopped reading that. Whatever. I should go read the next history readings... and Law too! Haha! Maybe next week.

New Year! New Year! New Year! What could my New Year's resolution be? Hrmmm... Hahaha! I don't know really... less smoking? less drinking? or maybe more studying? Hahaha! Whatever. I end up not following it anyway. Maybe I'll try this year... or not.

I'm keeping a secret. And at a crucial moment, I admitted it. Now, since that has passed... I am back to denial... the best defense mechanism there is. [Although rationalization is another way to go at it]

Gym? I think I need to gain weight first. Darn darn darn. I don't think I'll be gaining weight anymore. It's weird really, I've been eating alot recently, but it seems I'm not gaining any weight. Oh well.

I'm tired. I'm tired of being a coward. HAHAHA!

Later.

Merry Christmas!!!

I wish you all a Merry Christmas!

Every year, every christmas... I want, or I'd tell myself I'd change. Again, this year, I'm telling myself this. Somehow, the christmas aura gets to me... even at times like these when I feel... alone. Hahaha!

Yes, the Christmas spirit reached me in time. It's a merry merry christmas. Hahaha! Good thing I went to Mass. It kinda started there.

I'm not receiving any cash this Christmas. Argh. Hrmm.. I hope relatives visit so I can get cash! Haha!

Funny, I'm here asking for gifts... and who have I given anything to? No one. Just like every year [except maybe a few years back... like 1st year highschool or something.. haha!]

I want my parents. Life was always better back then. Haha!

Enough of that.

I want to see the mist just before sunrise. It feels cold and... not lonely... but something else. Cold and calm. Haha! Yeah that's it.

Beach trip moved. Argh. Ok lang I guess... haha!

I'm free.

Ua's bday

Okay. Haha. Fun. Laughtrip. Funny.

I'm just a little bit hit. Haha.

It's almost christmas....

It's kinda sad. Now that I think about it. Not having anyone this Christmas is... well.. kinda sucks... hahaha!

Haha! Well today was the first time I actually talked about everything... wahahaha! Oh well... I'm deprived! Haha!

I have nothing nice to say really... I'm sleepy

I waited for a reply.

I am shamed.

[Ninakaw ko ang pics na ito kay Joanne]


Straight ko ba ito?


SIGE LANG INOM LANG!!!


Uh oh... gumegewang gewang na ang paglakad


Ayan, bumagsak na nga


ARGH! Talo ako :((


Bagsak na... GG!


Gusto ko lang idagdag... it's so beautiful! Haha!

Babawi ako. Tangina. Hahaha!

Random

I just realized the whole post was idiotic....

Left to many obvious fragments of thoughts...

IDIOT!

What I'm waiting for

BANZAI!!!!

Haha. Tae. Still can't get over the fact that I got drunk with my blockmates. Unacceptable.

Anyway... I didn't get to go with Banzai last night. Josh texted and Mike called but I didn't have my phone. By the time I checked it, it was already around 11:30... so yeah... missed it... next time. I'm excited for the beach trip, but I don't have a girl to bring with me :(( HAHAHA! Oh well... maybe next year... or summer? Wahaha!

Finished the book I was reading. ABC Murders.... wasn't bad... quite nice actually. It had a nice twist.

Hrmm... what else... I'm bored here at home. I have no one to talk to.... nothing to do... argh!

I have come to a conclusion that there are no signals... only simple hope that one wants to put into perfectly normal behavior.

Backtrack.

Obviously, something's wrong with the world.

Uneasy...

Inexplicable. Unbelievable. Down right weird...

I got drunk.... wait, that's not the unbelievable part because that happens a lot.... the unbelievable part is that I got drunk... with my blockmates!!! ARGH!!! WEAK WEAK WEAK WEAK!!! [This will shame me forever]

And being my typical self, it's time to reach some rationalizations.

First, to justify my weakness, I have to say that I did not eat dinner [aside from the fries that I was mooching off people]. Second, well, I still did drink the most compared to anyone. Third, well... there was a part when I was drinking ALONE. Yes, it's a sad sad life. Hahaha! Fourth, well... there really isn't a fourth but say there is... ah fuck it! Haha!

So yeah... surprising enough... I have just finally proven [to myself] that having a blank part of what happened really happens... even to the point that after seeing pictures and hearing stories... I STILL CANNOT REMEMBER SOME INCIDENTS. [Mainly the whole night after I started drinking alone up to the moment I woke up and mind you, a lot of things happened... they have proof! ARGH] This isn't like "I remember this, but not this"... but instead something like, "this is the last I remember... what's next?"

Embarrassing. I am disappointed at myself.

Anyway... up to the point that I remember... it was fun. I won once in poker. Lost to Bin in the second one on heads up. Drinks weren't bad. Solo shots for myself. Yosi break with Mao. And a lot of other stuff.

I don't want to go to school ever again. I'm too embarrassed. Hahaha!

In other news... History test wasn't very hard... although I did screw up the essay because well... I was writing too slow... taking my time [more rationalizations]... Accounting test wasn't bad either... quite nice... I'm hoping for a C+... hrmm... that's it I think.

I commend patience. I had that... once. Hahaha! Fortunately, I think I'm getting it back.

Sorry kay Raf at Jose... next time promise!

What?

I'm not feeling the Christmas Spirit... as a matter of fact, this is probably the first Christmas that gonna be a little different from the past ones... did that make sense? Probably not..

Finally, a little break from all that studying... I'm actually really studying.... haha... stress.

Beach beach beach!!! YEAH! Now I wonder where I'll be getting my money from...

Ouch.

Hrmm... I kinda decided to go with my blockmates instead of the usual people... kinda sucks that I did... patalo kce ung basketball eh... walang nagpunta.

I can't wait for my new phone! Haha!

Relief? Stress? Argh!

I thought I looked stupid for about a month... but then I realized... wait no... you probably looked stupid for almost a year. Yup... that's it.
And now, I'm in a situation where I'm about to make the same mistake twice [wow, I called it a mistake].'

Guess what?.....

It doesn't matter. Because when you think about it, what other people think doesn't really matter. It's like this thing in the movie Shallow Hal...

You screwed me, man! l had a beautiful,caring, funny, intelligent woman, and you made her disappear!
Oh, no, l didn't. l just made Rosemary appear.There's a difference. lt's called reality.
Hey, if you can see something and hear itand smell it, what keeps it from being real?
Third-party perspective.
OK, let me ask you a question.Who's the all-time love of your life?
Wonder Woman.
OK. Let's say Wonder Woman falls in love with you, right? Would it bother you if the rest of the world didn't find her attractive?
Not at all. Cos l know they'd be wrong.
That's what l had with Rosemary! l saw a knockout!l don't care what anybody else saw!
Jeez, l never thought about it that way.

So now, do I really think I looked stupid for almost a year? Hahaha!

Anyway... I need YOUR help. I am in dire need of funds. Yes... I have used up the money for the exchange gift and now I have none. Please please please... hahaha!

Next week is when I get to test my so called intellect. SA long test, accounting Long test, History long test and a Fil paper... argh... stress stress! Plus I have no money!!! Grrr.... haha. Oh well. Whatever.

BASKETBALL!!! ON WEDNESDAY! I'M SORRY BLOCKMATES! HAHAHA!

Just to update

I have yet to see resutls of my long tests and see if I have to treat my friends out.

A very risky bet.

Darn.

Nice update ain't it?

The Long Weekend

Started out on Thursday. Block was supposed to go to Tagaytay... cancelled so some decided to go to Mao's house and just drink there. Pizza, poker and drinks. Best combo. Headed to Mac's house after to sleep there. I didn't sleep. Played ps2 after everyone fell asleep.

We decided to go home [back to katip for me] at around 2. Ate with Jonel. Got to LC and played Warcraft. Met up with Raf and drank in Drews. Karen and her friends passed by for a while. Raf and I left after they did. As I was entering the LRT station, the guard stopped me. He told me I smelled like alcohol... so yeah.. haha. Had to take the jeep home. We also had to take a different gate because most of the gates were already closed. By the time we got home [went out again to buy drinks], we were too tired to drink again. 1 beer [I didn't even finish mine]. Haha. I fell asleep for a while... then NSTP!

NSTP... yeah... had to pay for food. Argh. Haha! I played in LC after, again, with blockmates. When I was about to go home, Trix texted so I met up with her. She ended up going with me to West triangle then parted ways in the Station when she was gonna go back to UP. That was tiring. Haha.

Then Carlos' house after. Drinks. I kinda got scared coz I didn't ask for permission but when I got home [at around 4AM sunday] I wasn't scolded. So yeah... Justin's birthday was fun. Good drinks. Nice company. And as usual, Jerick's stupid and funny stories as he probably was a little tipsy.

And yes... I haven't studied anything. But no worries, I woke up at around 430PM so I'll be staying up all night to study.

Hurray for History

Haha! I passed by Cafe Ysabela at around 6 but no one was there... crap. Haha!

I got 19 in my history quiz, out of 15. Wahaha! yeah. I got 15 out of 20 for my SA paper... but I must say, and this is no rationalization, that the paper was just a play of words... sa tagalog nga eh... puro bola... hahaha!

I got myself money. So now I can go with my blockmates and buy that exchange gift thing. I knew I could make a way... and that's up to me to know what I did. Hahaha! Mysterious? Nah... I'm just a little influential.

I got stuff in my feet. Weird stuff with water inside... eww... so now, it feels weird walking... and it's kinda painful to play basketball. GRRR!

I am intrigued by your sudden awareness of things and by your fortified walls and by your ever so treacherous tactics. What am I talking about? I don't really know.

Ok... so all I have to do is keep up what I'm doing [except for SA class, coz it's still the most boring class on earth, and I need to step up in this class] and I'll be fine. Straight B's, here I come! WAHAHA! Ayaw ko ng A eh... parang ang hassle... parang ang hirap ma-reach... ay conyo! Haha!

Rebuilding a friendship I wanted to forget. Why? I don't need to answer that.

No day but... screw that! Haha

There will always be tomorrow.

Ooh! The great epiphany! Haha!

I was really planning on going to my NSTP. I didn't wake up, although I was really planning on not sleeping, I fell asleep... so yeah... I woke up at around 530, but fell asleep AGAIN! Crap... so I ended up sleeping until 3PM... oh well.

I haven't studied, but I don't really HAVE to study for anything. Although, it entails a little security when I study even when there isn't any test scheduled. Hrmm... maybe tom. I hope. I'll go read theo and histo... then scan through the Law and Accntng books. YEAH! Haha!

As for my basketball game with my blockmates.... whoever said anything about a team? It only takes one... one player to rule the court. And yes, that's me... WAHAHAHA! [Don't hate me!]

Tagaytay. I have decided to go. I haven't asked permission... not that I need to. Haha! Anyway, if this turns out to be another flop... I won't be expecting anything anymore. I'll plan some shit for the block [Although I'm thinking if I ever I do plan, it'll turn out to be a guy's night out... ewww... WAHAHA!]

Study real good during weekdays. Drink on weekends. PERFECT!

I should really fix my sleeping habits. Haha!

This... this is destiny. This is fate. Do I really believe in this crap? Hahaha!

I'm ready for the climax.

Are you?

Washing away

The world never ceases to be interesting.

It was good that I went out. Dre, Phonse, and Jek. Drinking in Petron, talking about bullshit and the like. [It was nice too that I didn't spend a single cent, WAHAHA] It even reached the point where we were talking about marriage [Like who would fall first, uh best man position, who wouldn't get married... hahaha simple jokes]

Memories... they're always a nice topic. Making fun of all the stupid bullshit that has happened in your lives. Sad thing is, there are some that should really be forgotten. Haha.

I've decided to go to Tagaytay. Whatever... I should get wasted and puke all over... NYAHAHA!

I didn't get to study. Tomorrow.

Now I have to reschedule that basketball game. I can't do it on Thursday since the block is leaving for Tagaytay... Hrmm... GRRR!

I read... and felt nothing. I'm free!

This is my convention

Did nothing the whole day except watch prison break. I was supposed to play basketball but my body hurt like hell... didn't sleep very well. Got just a little bit tipsy... maybe due to the fact that I didnt have dinner. [excuses? Hahaha! WEAK!]

There seems to be NSTP tom... I don't like it. Tae... I don't know what to do with that subject... maybe I can just go to the make up classes or something. Lazy...

I'll be studying later... I hope.

There seems to be a little problem with trying to convince myself lately... It's not working very well. I've even tried to convince myself by spreading the news... and yet I find myself in question. Obviously, I can't drop it that easily. Escape plan is not working.

Deprived. Regret. Hungry. Thankful. Pissed. Annoyed. Happy.

Welcome to paradise.