The rule of three

There's always a triangle in love. Only sometimes, you learn to give up/ sacrifice that third point... and no, that triangle doesn't necessarily mean people. It could be love for smoking, drinking or whatever. Something has to be compromised.

I want a Katie to come by my life. Wahaha! Tangena... whattaloser!

Time has pushed me to the limits. It's always time that screws up everything. Waiting for example... it's time.. the length of the period of waiting... that screws up bad. Waiting for the right moment, waiting for the oppurtunity, waiting for an answer... actually, waiting for anything even as simple waiting in line or waiting for your ride home... waiting sucks... and that is time's nature. Destroys things... but

Let's say you waited for something and it happened. Let's say you waited 3 hours for your ride home. When it does finally arrive, there's a sense of peace... a sense of satisfaction... when you finally say "SA WAKAS!" So, waiting is a double edged blade. Waiting makes things sweeter... but it also creates that slow destruction where one says "Ayoko na..." Time really has this weird power... I can't explain it.

Time has this nature of... keeping things apart... err wait.. that's not right... this nature of... pulling things apart. Time whispers in your ear and says "tingnan mo, ang tagal mo nang andyan... di ka pa ba sawa sa paghintay?" or something like "andyan ka pa rin? magkakasama na kayo ng maraming taon ah, oras na para sa ibang bagay" or whatever... my point is... time somehow pulls things apart. Like say old childhood friends... sometimes... inseperable as you may seem... in time... you're relationship changes... pulling you farther. Other factors to these could be the fact of growing up... but isn't that caused by time?

But with all this... if there is a sense of hope... like say you hope for you friendship to last longer and longer and longer... sometimes... it does... hope, and acting upon it [or something like that] fends off time's nature of pulling things apart.

Ok, this probably doesn't make sense... I'm actually having a hard time expressing my thoughts into words. Argh... I hate being an incompetent writer person whatever... hahaha! Sucks shit... anyway... this leads to an idea I read that say we are destined to diverge. How from being a child close to it's family, slowly drifts away as he reaches his teens, drifts more as he reaches early adulthood and finally moves away to start his own family in which he would eventually grow distant with, no matter what, until he dies.

All because of time... MAYBE! HAHAHAHA!

I have this fear of having stupid insights... another reason why I don't like contributing ideas in groupworks and shit... so I write in this blog instead... and even here, I am... ashamed? HAHAHA! Whatever... character reformation... it's still ongoing... hahaha!

Oh, but these thoughts are incomplete... I'm just not good enough to explain what I want to say... idiot.

It's time